I had a very humbling moment today. I spent some time in my closet crying.
Have you ever had that moment when you are "parenting" (alright, when you are disciplining) your child and you get this brief thought of
"Is this the way Heavenly Father struggles with His children and has he ever thought this way about me?"
There are moments when I get so frustrated with my daughter. I have to be honest, I had a melt down today.
As I was pouring out my heart to my husband and expressing my frustration that my daughter will not listen to me and be obedient to the things I am trying to teach her, he wisely responded with the following counsel:
"Perhaps the lesson that is being taught is not meant for her, perhaps you are being taught by your father. Are you paying attention?"
And then my heart ached. Literally, pain in my chest as I was grateful for being reminded of the spiritual point of view.
One thing that Brian is very good at is that he lovingly reminds me of my weaknesses and helps me to see a possible step in a direction to maybe over come it.
I have spent the last week preparing for a new family tradition in our home that will occur duing the 12 days of Christmas. All in hopes that we could build traditions that will help Shae think that her Christmas's were wonderful and meaningful. A ton of time and effort has been put into this little project. As I was purchasing the last little bit of items for this event, Shae was being a complete Jerk to me. I was so mad that I was working so hard on something for her and she was being a jerk.
As I thought about Brian's counsel, I remembered a video I saw last week and thought to myself, I want to be an invisible woman. Please watch and it will explain:
So, as I write this post (and let me mention that I have missed our interactions immensely), I continue to ponder on the lessons that I need to learn and I am no longer bothered by being the invisible woman in my home.