Setting the Record Straight!

There are a few items of business that have been on my mind lately that I feel that I would like the chance to set the record straight. So, lend me your compassionate ear for a moment as I confess my true feelings or what is really going on inside of my head.

1. Pregnancy and Babies!

I have found that in the last couple years of my life, a lot of women have become pregnant. (Duh!) I can almost guarantee that I am pretty much one of the last ones to know or at least one of the most painful to tell the news to. I finally had my visiting teacher confess to me that she did not want to tell me that she was pregnant because she felt bad that she could have children and I can't.

Well, I would like to set the record straight!

I rejoice in all pregnancies and all babies. Seriously, I am not bothered to hear that someone is pregnant. In fact, in my heart I am so happy for them. I know there are women who struggle with infertility issues that hearing that someone is pregnant is like hearing finger nails on a chalk board. However, I do not include myself in that category. I want to rejoice and celebrate with you on your newest family member. I only ask that you do not ask me to come over right after the baby is born. You see, kidnapping is a felony here in the state of Utah and I am doing my best to not steal any new born children that are absolutely irresistable! Please, do not be afraid to tell me! Your joy is my joy too!

#2. Who was I talking about in the Faith is Like a Seed blogpost.

When I wrote this post and talked about a specific woman, I left it so general because there are a few of you that read my blog that may know her. I feel very bad that there are some that inserted their names into that spot, whom I would NEVER had handled that situation in such a manner.

I would like to set the record straight!

Please let me tell you a little about the woman we fasted for. She went inactive with the church in her teenage years. Something happened and she was completely offended. Long story short, she married, had some kids, divorced and then married again. If you cannot tell, we are quite involved in missionary efforts and have watched as many of the members of the family have tried to become active again or become a member. She does not agree with this and unconsciencely ruins any opportunities. Her son asked to be baptized and wants to serve a mission and she pretty much ended that dream. She is the nicest and coolest woman I have met, and yet she is very persistant on her perspective of how she sees the church. Because I love her, I have to respect her feelings and honor her rules as a mother. However, it is so disheartening to see over a period of time that when great progression is made in helping that family, they seem to take 3 steps back. We have done everything we can to help this boy and now we have realized that if the mother will soften her heart a little, perhaps his wishes can be fulfilled. Until then, we love them and support them and respect their wishes.

If I were to enter a alterior name in the mystery woman for that post, if you knew me well, I would undoubtedly put my name in there. There are many aspects of my life that I could be accused of being stubborn and selfish. I only criticize myself with the decisions that I make. To those who may have been offended, I am sorry!

#3. Being Angry

My husband and I were driving home the other night late from meetings and as we are talking he sweetly says "I need to tell you something and you have to promise to not get mad!" To which my reply was, ok let's hear it.

He proceeds to tell me that he observes me during our meetings. Brian and I have the same callings in our respective auxillaries. He sits straight across from me at the table. He then tells me that when I am in deep thinking mode or very passionate about a point that I want to make, I look very angry.

WHAT?

To which I explained to him that I wasn't angry at all. He tells me that he knows that, but others may not see it that way at all.

OK, let me set the record straight!

I am not an angry person. Really, I don't get mad very much. I have had someone else tell me that they thought I was angry during a meeting in which my reply was, no not at all. I had a counselor that worked with me and she said that people would ask her what it is like to work with me and was I mad all the time? Wow! That was a shocker to hear! Plus, how do you fix that? If I smile all the time, well that could get really creepy. If any of you have suggestions, I am wide open. This perplexes me as if telling me to stop drooling when I sleep. How do you fix that?

So, I want my friends and family to know that if you see me and I look angry, most likely I am thinking deeply or have a perspective that I am very passionate about sharing. I am not mad all the time and I am really a quite pleasant person. I have my down days, but who doesn't?

If I was angry, I won't look you in the face, trust me, you will know if I am angry. But I doubt you will ever see my true anger because I am a pretty happy girl almost all the time. However, I am working on my deep thought and passionate looks so that those around me will not get the wrong impression. I am working on it! I am!